When Pro-Life Sermons Can’t Save Your Dead Child

When I got married everyone in my congregation commented on how I did things “the right way.” Both of us were virgins on our wedding night. Among those first awkward moments together in the first week I had a dream about the baby we would conceive. I saw myself washing this beautiful little girl’s hair in the bathtub. She had my eyes, a playful smile, and curly brown hair. My own mother had experienced the same type of vision before I was born. She had seen me before I even came into the world.

This resonated with the pro-life messages in church referencing Jeremiah 1:5 Before I formed you in the womb I knew you. To have an abortion was to kill the person that baby would become and believers had to fight for those lives. I fought for that little girl I saw in my dream. I stayed in the marriage for as long as I could because I knew marriage was holy. However, my husband was treacherous to me and it got to the point where staying would have ended my life.

I was bombarded with messages about how God hates divorce. When I read the Scriptures myself I found that there was more to the issue than just divorce. Malachi 2:14 The LORD is acting as witness between you and the wife of your youth, because you have broken faith with her. God hates divorce because the man has broken faith with his wife, not because a wife divorced to escape mistreatment. The Scriptures go on to say that when the two become one it is to seek a seed from God. I had a vision of that seed from God, my daughter, the baby that was aborted when my husband broke faith with me.

I couldn’t help but think about what I had lost when a well-known Messianic Rabbi “J Con-Artist” came to my congregation as a guest speaker to deliver a fiery sermon against abortion. Yet, standing right behind this Rabbi “J Con-Artist” was my ex-husband on security. His sermon defended unwanted pregnancies with no consideration for rape but did not include my seed which was killed by the man standing on the pulpit with him. I sent this Rabbi “J Con-Artist” a letter describing my revelations about marriage and the seed from God only to receive a form letter in return saying that he did not have time to answer directly. It was understandable that a well-known Messianic Rabbi could not respond to everyone. However, what bothered me was that this Rabbi “J Con-Artist” was willing to preach a pro-life sermon designed to stir people to vote a certain way, directly effecting the treatment between a woman’s legs, yet he could not address me straightforwardly.

His sermon defended unwanted pregnancies with no consideration for rape but did not include my seed which was killed by the man standing on the pulpit with him.

In the film, Natalie’s Abortion, what stood out to me was the scene when the pastor passionately preached a pro-life sermon to defend unwanted pregnancies but made no distinctions between a seed from God within the Covenant of Marriage, and a violation from rape. Although, the pastor in the film made valid points about the sinister Eugenics movement and the money-making schemes of Planned Parenthood, the pastor lacked insight into how harmful his message could be to someone who had an abortion due to a rape related pregnancy. I believe God will restore that seed that I lost when my husband broke faith with me, and it is my prayer that believers will gain more perspective in what it means to be pro-life; which is to defend the rights of the woman in the marriage to protect a seed from God and recognize that all seeds are not from God.

Five Scriptures that Prove the Bible is NOT Pro-Life

Five Scriptures that Prove the Bible is NOT Pro-Life

Judgment against Amalek included the death of infants

1 Samuel 15:3 Now go, attack Amalek and totally destroy everything that belongs to them. Do not spare them; put to death men and women, children and infants, cattle and sheep, camels and donkeys.

Contrary to the Bible, the pro-life argument would seek to save every aborted baby, but the pro-life stance refuses to acknowledge that abortion may prevent the next Hitler from arising.

Most pro-life arguments focus on the idea of saving innocent babies. However, in the Bible the state of infancy does not define innocence or exempt a baby from the death penalty. When God pronounced judgment against the nation of Amalek even babies nursing at the breast were to be put to death. This is because the people of Amalek were so evil that even their babies could not be redeemed. In the biblical account, Saul failed to carry out this order and as a result Haman, a descendant of Amalek, later rose to power and attempted genocide against the Jewish people. There are also speculations that Adolf Hitler, the leader of the Nazis who lead the genocide against 6 million Jews, was descended from Haman an Amalekite. Contrary to the Bible, the pro-life argument would seek to save every aborted baby, but the pro-life stance refuses to acknowledge that abortion may prevent the next Hitler from arising.

Life Begins at the First Breath

Genesis 2:7 the LORD God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.

Adam did not become a living being until the breath of life entered his nostrils. He had been formed from the dust, but the formation did not define life—it was the first breath. Death is defined when a person stops breathing. A person who was never breathing cannot be considered dead, because without taking a breath a person was never alive. Babies form in the womb, but life enters when that baby takes a breath.

Injuring a fetus resulted in a fine, not the death penalty

Exodus 21:22 If men who are fighting hit a pregnant woman and she gives birth prematurely but there is no series injury, the offender must be fined

The Old Testament is explicit; an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth and the cost of life is life. The penalty for murder is the death sentence. Yet, the punishment for causing the death of an unborn child is a fine. This means that God does not consider the unborn child as a fully developed life. If a baby in the womb was considered a life, then the consequence would be death. Calling abortion murder is contrary to the way God views an unborn child.

The Seed of the Wicked is Cut Off

Psalms 37: 28 For the LORD loveth judgment, and forsaketh not his saints; they are preserved forever; but the seed of the wicked shall be cut off.

The Hebrew word for seed, זרע (zerah) refers not only to lineage, but also the literal seed, semen, from a man. In the womb the seed from a man fertilizes an egg which develops into a baby. To cut that seed off is to put a stop to that baby from forming. Putting an end to the seed of the wicked is an act of justice. Wicked men rape, and fighting to protect the seed of the wicked-rape related pregnancies-is fighting against the justice that God provides.

Erectile Dysfunction is from God

Psalms 69:24 May their eyes grow dim so that they cannot see; may their loins collapse continually.

This is a prayer for the loins of the wicked to fail. Although the pro-life movement claims that all pregnancies are from God, the psalmist correctly identifies the gender directly responsible for unwanted pregnancies. When the loins of the wicked collapse, through erectile dysfunction, their wicked seed is prevented from coming in contact with a woman. Receiving an answer to this prayer, for the loins of the wicked to fail, is the most biblically accurate way to prevent an abortion.

When the loins of the wicked collapse, through erectile dysfunction, their wicked seed is prevented from coming in contact with a woman.

Natalie’s Abortion, tells the unshared story of a woman who has to deal with a rape related pregnancy, abortion, and the constant bombardment of society’s unsolicited opinion about her decision. The story shows the ultimate triumph of a rape survivor as she finds her own voice and takes the power back in her life. This film was censored on Amazon, but is now available for viewing on Vimeo. Sharing our support for survivors—no matter what our political belief or religious background—can make or break a community’s ability to better process opinions on abortion, and address what they perceive as right or wrong behavior instead of forcing moral opinions that can trigger trauma for someone who has experienced sexual assault or a rape related pregnancy. These are tough subjects, but my intention is to share a story of survival that can uplift everyone and shift the conversation towards justice for all women. You too, can be part of this movement by simply watching Natalie’s Abortion on Vimeo and sharing it with your friends. Thank you for your support.

How to Stop Politics from Hindering Compassion for Victims

April is sexual assault awareness month. One in four women has suffered the trauma of sexual assault by men, and society has failed women in terms of seeking justice against male perpetrators. In addition to this, many victims struggle with an unwanted rape related pregnancy. Polarization of politics has made the topic of abortion a Left or Right wing issue. Rather than show compassion to a victim under pressure from the harrowing ordeal of forced conception, people are more inclined to promote their personal political views.

The film, Natalie’s Abortion is not a Left or Right wing film. It is not a pro-life or pro-choice film.

Natalie’s Abortion is a film which tells the story of a woman who is forced to deal with rape, a grueling sexual assault examination, an incompetent law enforcement system, unwanted rape related pregnancy, abortion, and the unsolicited political opinions of society. The film shows the ultimate triumph of a rape survivor as she finds her own voice and takes the power back in her life. While she is on this journey the fundamental question is put forward, “Should the seed of the wicked go forward?”

While she is on this journey the fundamental question is put forward, “Should the seed of the wicked go forward?”

Beyond politics the real question concerning sexual assault, rape related pregnancy, and abortion is, “Should the seed of the wicked go forward?” I invite you to share a story of survival that can uplift everyone and shift the conversation towards justice for all women in support of survivors for sexual assault awareness month. You can watch and share Natalie’s Abortion on Vimeo.com

How to Keep Pressing Forward in a World Full of Haters

Anytime you seek to do something different you will encounter haters who will criticize you, your dreams, and your accomplishments.

I’ve never fit into a type so my whole life I’ve always had a barrage of haters spewing their venom at me. The advice I was always given was, “not to let people push your buttons.” On the surface this seemed like great advice, but it never held the haters accountable. If someone knows that something is hurtful why do they make it their purpose to do it? The advice to not let a hater push your buttons is like telling someone not to let a robber burglarize your house. Shouldn’t the thief know stealing is wrong, just like a hater should find out how to love? Yet, how would haters learn to be any different if they’ve never been called out?

To keep pressing forward in a world full of haters people have to be retrained in how to interact with one another.

To keep pressing forward in a world full of haters people have to be retrained in how to interact with one another. People tend to believe and follow what they see, so media has been a means for me to put a different message into the world.

When it comes to domestic violence rather than preach to the woman, ‘know the signs,’ why not challenge the way communities respond to an abuser instead.

The Curse of EVE available on Vimeo.com

On the controversial topic of abortion instead of making it a political left or right issue why not examine the sovereignty a woman has over her body from a biblical point of view.

Natalie’s Abortion available on Vimeo.com

Putting forward different ideas has come with a certain degree of hate, but it has also inspired others in a new way of thinking. This is why I was so honored to receive the 2022 award for Woman Filmmaker at the World Music and Independent Film Festival (WMIFF)!

Overcoming haters involves building a group of people who support each other. Founded by June Daguiso the WMIFF is a gathering of independent filmmakers from D.C., Maryland, and Virginia (DMV) for the opportunity to celebrate our contributions to film and collaborate to do something different. The event was filled with fine dining, fashion, dancing, and most importantly love for film. The best way to challenge haters is to create an environment without hate. I was so happy to receive the WMIFF Woman Filmmaker award during women’s history month because it reminded me of everything anyone can accomplish when living without hate.

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How Women can take Authority over the Narrative of their Lives

The invention of the printing press changed the world. With the ability to quickly print and spread information new voices and ideas emerged in society. Controversy soon followed when printed translations of the Bible were placed into the hands of ordinary people. Direct access to the Bible meant that people were no longer subject to the interpretations of priests, but anyone could read the Bible for themselves and make their own decision about what they read. In addition to making their own decisions, new thought leaders could put forward their own ideas and put them into print as well.

The ability of women to publish their own stories represents their power to take authority over the narrative of their lives. At the Fall of Man when Adam controlled the narrative, he blamed Eve for all of his shortcomings. When women take back their authority and tell their own stories they can make their own decisions about what they have read and act on it. Jeremiah 31: 22…for the LORD hath created a new thing in the earth, A woman shall compass a man.

…for the LORD hath created a new thing in the earth, A woman shall compass a man.
Jeremiah 31: 22

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